Being a Mom and a friend

It's mid afternoon and Luke is on the bus coming home from school. I find myself wanting to talk. To call up my mom and talk. Lately it's in the mid afternoon I feel that urge to call a friend or my mom. But it's too early to call Mom because her time is 8 hours earlier than our Italy time. And I'm not a phone person. I don't just call up girl friends to talk. Probably because my girl friends are busy being mom's so talking on the phone might not work out very well.

I have this desire to need my girl friends. To need to call and talk and have their help and support. Really I have all the love, friendship and support from Heavenly Father and my husband to keep me going. My life is so together and has been for over 4 years.  Being a mom is not easy but I can handle it.

Luke is so responsible...I love all the things he can do for himself and his little brother like get a drink of water from the sink and get dressed. The one thing that drives me crazy sometimes is his potty training failures. He was doing so well to keep his underwear dry. But a month ago he started peeing in his pants after school/before bed.  It came to be sometimes twice a day.
So I created a sticker chart; promising Luke a present if he can go 7 days in a row with no accidents. At the end of each day if he's stayed dry all day he gets two M&Ms. He couldn't make it two days in a row! And when I gave him his candy right before getting dressed for bed he pooped in his underwear! I was so mad I made him throw his sticker chart away, saying he doesn't deserve a chance to get a present. I bought some cool gifts that I'm hiding away.

With Ty I have such a hard time. He does not listen. He's in his terrible twos and it's hard to handle. But if I need a break I just have Sterling watch the kids and I go shopping (for myself or for the family) alone. Sterling watches the kids when I have a cake to decorate or a photo shoot. I do a lot for me, to keep my sanity. 
I usually don't have problems to talk to people about because I have things under control...and Sterling makes me so happy.  But now that I think about it...it's the perfect time to try calling a friend just to talk because I actually have problems! Nelli is my favorite friend because she's my most supportive. She comes to parties and events I throw...even if NOBODY else comes. She's so sweet and awesome...her family too!

I have friends...Melanie Archuletta, Susannah Butikofer, Missy Robinson, I feel Kara Hamburg is finally becoming my friend, Nelli Mangle, and friends who've moved away from here. But I don't feel they think I need them. Sometimes I wonder if they think I'm really their friend...not that they shows signs of it but that I feel I'm not that good at letting my friends know I NEED them. That's a good idea...I should write a special note to each of friends letting them know how much their friendship means to me.

Ha! Who needs a therapist?! I figure things out by typing journal and talking to loved ones!
This has been very helpful emotionally! I think I'll start calling Nelli or get her to come over this weekend so we can hang out and talk about our mothering problems.

Love, Tiffany